I'm sure down the road I'll look back at this post and think how funny it was that one little trip to Target was so stressful. But, for now, as a first time mom, that's how I feel. A few days ago Jack and I ventured out for our first real solo outing. Now, we've walked to Vons and Starbucks, we've driven around town, and we've gone with daddy to run errands. But this was my first time driving somewhere with him, getting out the stroller, popping in the car seat, and navigating the mall and the Target aisles by myself.
The trip started as all our car trips do - with crying. He cried the whole 10 minute ride and by the time we pulled into the parking lot, it had reached a crescendo. I parked, pulled the stroller out of the back, got in the back seat and pulled out his car seat. I popped the seat in the stroller as he melted down. Now that he was out in public, he really let it rip. Heads turned toward me, eyes accusing me of abusing my baby. And since when do so many people sit in their car in parking lots? Seems like we were surrounded by them. Since I was determined not to surrender and head home (and skip Target?!) I decided to take a few laps around the shopping center before going in the store. The long walk combined with white noise blasting on my iPhone made him eventually fall asleep. I went in and had a lovely time at Target. Though I didn't know where to put everything without a cart so I piled a billion things into my one reusable shopping bag. And I couldn't figure out why I was getting strange looks as I wheeled the stroller thru the aisles. Then I realized that my iPhone was tucked in with Jack and was blasting white noise. People apparently couldn't figure out where the waterfall noise was coming from.
He slept through the check out and even through putting his car seat in the back seat. But the minute I started the car, he woke up and went off the deep end. Sobbing, screaming. No amount of white noise, music, dangling toys, windows open, could help. At one point he started choking so I pulled over to make sure he was okay. He was. But when I finally got home his hair was soaking wet and he had sweat through his clothes. All with a 10 minute drive.
And that was our first solo outing. The car was painful but the store was a dream (as usual). And if you're interested, Jack and I came back with new onesies, tortillas, greeting cards, make-up, ice cream, and deodorant. I love Target.